Posted by Amy Francis (12.152.252.5) on August 04, 2003 at 18:20:21:
miss you
I could really use some Jim-time at my apartment.
As I move into my new house, new life, I sadly leave
behind that which I cannot take with me.
Jim is one of those things.
I can take my memories and love
but I can't take you
I am sad
made sadder by all the loss
my friend
my mother
my BEST friend and most significant other...
I'm trying to hang onto my friends
but their lives are different now
everyone is evolving
pairing up
I remain
alone
...and so was Jim.
but, at least
when we were together
we were alone together
which is better
than being alone
on your own
I miss Jim
and all who have the courage
to stand alone.
(all two of us)
Sometimes I think
that if
I think hard enough
and really squeeze my eyes
together
I can make Jim materialize
in front of me
I haven't done it yet
but sometimes it feels
as if I'm almost there
he's almost here
and I'd take just a glimpse or whiff of him
and be glad
There were just some things that Jim understood better
than anyone else.
Jim knew.
Mom knew.
I know.
now
Until we meet again, or until you learn to
materialize that hairy ass of yours before me.
I remain,
Amy