Posted by roger kozlow (24.29.46.37) on August 26, 2002 at 03:47:02:
So I am listening for Jim
Maybe an eternal folly
hoping that he is somewhere where he can drop a line
so I listen to see if something jim like comes by
you know, the other day, I asked jim to give me a sign, something that I would not think of myself, just to let me know he was there
it feels very selfish to ask jim for anything, seeing that if he was anywhere else, he would be getting the jim sense of it, so i am more letting him know that I am here, kind of in the auditorium, without anyone necessarily being booked
so after I asked, I had this early morning dream that I had to let an old friend (actually someone who was not quite friendly to me, but who I had respect for, partially out of fear of them being a psycho)know that their mother had died.
All i remember is that I was riding through a library on a really small bike, like a clown bike, going under the tables and through the legs, weaving like a fish, but then somehow, later when i was awake, the bike became a little white pig. i was riding a little white pig through the legs of a library, weaving like a fish, trying to tell an old, not quite, partially psycho friend of mine that his mother was dead.
And you know, I was having a great time riding the pig. I never finished the mission, i just rode the pig.
I have a hard time remembering jim exactly
his clarity was hard for me to contain
easy to enjoy, though
I can't wait for some of it to visit me again
I love reading the stories, thanks
I remember his kindness and brilliance
he had so much power and he turned it loose well
I remember asking him a question about whether he thought there there was more after life
he indicated that he thought so
and then I asked him another question about after life
or that other realm, or whatever
I can't remember the question, only his answer
he told me that it was because it was so big
like this he indicated
i took that to mean like the size of the world happening now
and suddenly I had a sense of the great big space I was in
and how special the groups I visit are
the people I see
jim had a way of changing my point of reference
he gave me wonderful gifts
and my eyes and mind are open and listening for them
as they reveal themselves
maybe jim would tell me no need to try too hard
I don't really know what jim thought or meant, only what our conversations meant to me
and I am still trying to figure myself out
so try putting that in a decoder
i think a triangle has something to do with it
i'm working on it
I told jim about the triangle
he told me he saw the triangle in a hotel room, caught in some kind of controversy...
I remember jim telling me about a fox? that he saw somewhere around his house
He told me he was following it, and the fox was in on it too
I got a sense of him hopping through the woods
hanging with the fox
him, the fox, no boundaries
he had that gleam in his eye
the fox became exalted
the fox hopping the woods knew what was going on
and jim was in on it